The wording of your post confused me. I'm not privy to a lot of the details. Likewise, I'm very behind even in the most recent of things. John, I had no idea you suffered this loss. I'm so terribly sorry.
But, you're right. Who can be prepared for that kind of grief, even with advance preparation? Still, with all your faculties around you, with a history of handling your own stress and you knowing yourself best, you've probably got the skills to make it through this so deploy 'em.
Thinking about a 12-year old date in Dallas is a reel-to-reel of negative self-talk, however. So, turn it off. That'll defeat whatever efforts you're making to struggle through your grief. Surround yourself instead with positive, self-affirming thoughts and people currently in your life who have positive things to say about you.
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But, you're right. Who can be prepared for that kind of grief, even with advance preparation? Still, with all your faculties around you, with a history of handling your own stress and you knowing yourself best, you've probably got the skills to make it through this so deploy 'em.
Thinking about a 12-year old date in Dallas is a reel-to-reel of negative self-talk, however. So, turn it off. That'll defeat whatever efforts you're making to struggle through your grief. Surround yourself instead with positive, self-affirming thoughts and people currently in your life who have positive things to say about you.