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My dear, sweet, amazing brother friend.
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2011-05-17 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I vacillate between tears and something else almost indescribable by not only the reality of Dave's long struggle and ultimate passing, but by the depiction in this image of a kind of love and devotion I also feel towards my beloved Damien, so shamelessly conveyed without restraint or apology, as it should be.
It's about as honest as anything I've ever seen before in my entire life, and it encompasses an entire time line in a way I've never experienced before. I feel both grateful to bear witness and also unnerved as a spectator to something so intimate, raw, and primal.
I understand this image in fundamental ways and feel a sense of honor simply to know the back story that gave birth to this moment. I am heartbroken and soothed by it at the same time because it is that big, and I thank you for flooding my entire consciousness with this.
All I could ever hope for is to be as lucky as either of you were in what you made and shared with not only each other but the world entire. This image represents grief, resolution, unquestionable love, peace, heartbreak, uncertainty, and a deeper sense of KNOWING than practically anything I've ever seen before. I'll never be the same.
I send you much love, good energy, and light.
It's about as honest as anything I've ever seen before in my entire life, and it encompasses an entire time line in a way I've never experienced before. I feel both grateful to bear witness and also unnerved as a spectator to something so intimate, raw, and primal.
I understand this image in fundamental ways and feel a sense of honor simply to know the back story that gave birth to this moment. I am heartbroken and soothed by it at the same time because it is that big, and I thank you for flooding my entire consciousness with this.
All I could ever hope for is to be as lucky as either of you were in what you made and shared with not only each other but the world entire. This image represents grief, resolution, unquestionable love, peace, heartbreak, uncertainty, and a deeper sense of KNOWING than practically anything I've ever seen before. I'll never be the same.
I send you much love, good energy, and light.
The photo is upsetting in a way that just an announcement could never be. It crosses a line that people rarely do. Opening up an intimate moment rarely shared other than recollection. Not a photograph.
You are dealing with a moment I dread. Scott being 11 years older than me, short of an accident, it is inevitable.
Saying that I'm sorry just doesn't seem enough. Especially since I can see the tender moment of grief. But, I am so very sorry. You guys fought so hard.
You are dealing with a moment I dread. Scott being 11 years older than me, short of an accident, it is inevitable.
Saying that I'm sorry just doesn't seem enough. Especially since I can see the tender moment of grief. But, I am so very sorry. You guys fought so hard.
Has his sister and brother-in-law in Los Gatos been informed yet?
Every picture tells a story. I don't like photography... I usually avoid those parts of the art museum. And I think it's exactly because every picture tells a story - and I don't know the story. Your photo is heartbreaking. But I don't know the people, and I don't know what happened. I was looking at details: the wire-rim glasses, an earring, what looks like a bed at home and not a hospital bed. And it makes me sad and confused because I don't know the truth behind the image. I'm just left with this sense of loss and love. I am so sorry. But thank you...
i gave you my deepest condolences on your previous post. This post leaves me without any sufficient words. This is such a deeply affecting photograph. I can't express in how many ways.
I'm so very sorry.
I'm so very sorry.
Because of the way LJ loaded my friends page, the image was two screens below the top of your post.
This is one of the most heartbreaking and powerful images I've seen in a long time. The heartache I've felt for you over the past five days is only intensified.
This is one of the most heartbreaking and powerful images I've seen in a long time. The heartache I've felt for you over the past five days is only intensified.
That picture is a punch to the heart. I'm sitting here crying over it.
As I lie here in bed, tucked between my husband and the cat, my heart breaks for you, for Dave, for your love and for your loss. I have shed my share of tears & do each day when I think of you both.
I hurt for you and I rage. Rage at those who feel that we are lesser than, that our love and our families are not worthy of celebration or even validation. Thank you for the grace that photo embraces and rhe courage ir took to share it.
I hurt for you and I rage. Rage at those who feel that we are lesser than, that our love and our families are not worthy of celebration or even validation. Thank you for the grace that photo embraces and rhe courage ir took to share it.
Two days of wanting to respond somehow, but the words have all failed me.
Words fail me.
Holding on and letting go.
Suffering begun and suffering ended.
Painful truth and the peace that it brings.
Love that speaks volumes without a single word.
Suffering begun and suffering ended.
Painful truth and the peace that it brings.
Love that speaks volumes without a single word.
Seeing this reminds me why I grasp with dear life onto some things beyond what any of us would characterize as that which should be most valuable to any of us, what's beyond the people we love and cherish and what's most valuable and sentimental. It's anything really, anything that I can call "mine"... principles, food, old papers, dust that I procrastinate on sweeping out of the corner.
But, nothing compares to this. Hold on to your capacity to love, John.
But, nothing compares to this. Hold on to your capacity to love, John.
John,
You know that David and yourself have been more family to me at times in my life, than my own biological parents. I miss David so much...I have been heartbroken for over two weeks now and it feels just as fresh in my mind as it did when you called me. This image is beautiful, albeit sad and heartbreaking. I wish I could be there for you, to hug you, and to tell you it's going to be okay. You have shown me such love since we met over 13 years ago, and I was so excited when you guys became a couple.
Davids pain and suffering is over...he is in a much better place...
Love,
James
You know that David and yourself have been more family to me at times in my life, than my own biological parents. I miss David so much...I have been heartbroken for over two weeks now and it feels just as fresh in my mind as it did when you called me. This image is beautiful, albeit sad and heartbreaking. I wish I could be there for you, to hug you, and to tell you it's going to be okay. You have shown me such love since we met over 13 years ago, and I was so excited when you guys became a couple.
Davids pain and suffering is over...he is in a much better place...
Love,
James
I am so sorry this is so late. Dave was one of the truly sweet souls to have crossed into my life. There is nothing I can say that is magic or more eloquent than anyone else's words, but you served your partner as best you could. That is all anyone can ask.
God speed and rest with the angels Dave.
God speed and rest with the angels Dave.
I had seen the posts and didn't know Dave but as Bill said that photo is very raw, in a good way.
I hope it helps you. Keep well.
I hope it helps you. Keep well.
I do not know you, but I have seen you post on other friend's journals (and possibly on Google+?). It was a random jump to your page, which took me to your post on the one year anniversary of David's passing last year.
Not long after David passed, my own husband was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia on July 1 and went into remission and stayed there after six weeks. He exited hospital on November 14, 2011. My father passed from Alzheimer's three weeks later. On May 25 2012, Jason was readmitted after a relapse. After another shorter but hard-fought struggle, he succumbed to complications on June 25, 2012.
There is only one photograph that I know of that exists of that time and it is not mine. It shows one of my friends holding Jason's hand before he passed.
Everything else leading up to and immediately after his death is captured, etched in my mind where it will stay, but this image resonates with several individual moments in which I lay like this next to Jason before and after he took his last breath.
I am so sorry for your loss.
Not long after David passed, my own husband was diagnosed with acute myeloid leukaemia on July 1 and went into remission and stayed there after six weeks. He exited hospital on November 14, 2011. My father passed from Alzheimer's three weeks later. On May 25 2012, Jason was readmitted after a relapse. After another shorter but hard-fought struggle, he succumbed to complications on June 25, 2012.
There is only one photograph that I know of that exists of that time and it is not mine. It shows one of my friends holding Jason's hand before he passed.
Everything else leading up to and immediately after his death is captured, etched in my mind where it will stay, but this image resonates with several individual moments in which I lay like this next to Jason before and after he took his last breath.
I am so sorry for your loss.
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